So here I am blogging on New Year's Eve. Actually I had plans today, but in it seems to have gone wrong, all wrong. My initial plan was to ask someone out, watch the fireworks and spend time together. There's something I needed to get off my chest, heart and mind. But end up, there's nothing to do, no one to go out with.

Come to think of it, I'm not even ready for 2009. One year has flew by, with me knowing. Not that I regret not spending this year properly, this journey has made me realise that you're on your own in this world. The roller coaster ride without a seat belt, sitting alone with no one around you.

Damn, I'm having mood swings. So I guess 2009 coming with or without me ready. Brace yourself boy.

I've been thinking alot lately, and I really mean alot.

Have you ever though of something you care about, that one thing you really care about? That one special thing that means more to you then anything else in the whole wide world. And when you find her, you fight for her, you risk it all. You out her in front of everything, your future, your life, all of it. And maybe the stuff you do isn't that great, wonderful. You know what it doesn't really matter, because in your heart you know that the juice is worth the squeeze.

Home sweet home baby.
Japan was awesome boy, not mentioning cold.
I had a great time there, from Osaka to Tokyo.
Not forgetting I took loads of shots, pray they turn out well.

My flight was delayed on the way back home, around about 2 hours.
The flight from Japan to Singapore is 7 hours,
And I arrived in Singapore this morning at 2am.
So you do your maths at what time I took off.

If you have been to Japan before, what more must I say?
You obviously need to experience it yourself man.
It's a country I'd love to go back again, no doubts about it.
I really should let the pictures do the talking, but they're not developed yet.
Once I get them developed, I'll post some up here.
And the rest in my flickr account, well maybe in Lomotion as well.

Argh, I've yet to get my shoes.
Vans old school of mine is dying man.
You have served me well, so bloody well.
You'll have a proper ending, I'll make sure of it.

Merry Christmas & Have A Happy New Year(:

So let's take a break from this world.
You really deserve it, believe me.
I'll see when you get back.

Okay, so my flight to Japan is in 17 hours.
I'm kind of looking forward to it though.
And yes I'm spending my Christmas overseas,
So I'll be home after Christmas I promise.
I won't be updating for a whole week.
Obviously I'll miss you guys.
An early Merry Christmas everybody.

Recording was simply awesome, awesome I tell you.
We had fun though, laughing our heads off.
I'd Never Let You Go
That's the title of our first full length demo.
Once I receive it, I'll post it up and comments are appreciated.

And A Vacant Affair has just released their album, Reasons To Leave.
Seriously I need to get my hands on them.
Support local music scene.

Okay so I'm munching on Famous Amos cookies at this hour.
Seriously damn bored this week, no joking yeah.
So recording is in 13 hours time.
I don't know to feel excited or worried.
All I'm thinking about is just for her to have a safe flight there and back.

Had a chat with a secondary school friend.
Well, talking to him reminds me of our youth in the uniform days.
I mean in secondary school though.
So I'm flying of to Japan in 2 more days,
While she's flying off in a day's time.

I've got plans for New Year's Eve.
It's not that big of a plan, but I hope it goes into action.
I'll get her something when I'm at Japan.
Something big, and meaningful.
Not forgetting Famous Amos cookies for her(:

She made my day today, or should I say my night?
I wonder why she waited for me to text her?
Well I don't think I will ever know why.

Jamming today was sweet.
Practice makes perfect as many would say.
I had a great time with the guys as well with Daphne.
Laughed my head off.
It's been awhile since I had laughed out loud like today.

So now I'm trying to write new material for our band's second song.
I mean it's more like a demo, if we don't get to record it.
But I'm seriously stoked by our new stuff.
Love the new makeover that Kids Don't Sleep went through.
Awesome stuff man.

A random thought though.
I suddenly miss Valerie, seriously suddenly.
I wonder how is she and everything.
I just couldn't believe just what happen next.
Just unbelievable.

Well I sure hope Spongebob and Patrick do me a favour, a huge one.
So Friday wasn't that successful, in terms of crowd turn up.
I did give her something, well a few things in fact.
Staying up all night for someone doing something doesn't seem so bad.
I really hope she likes it, Spongebob you better do your thing.
But I didn't give it to her personally though.

Well I don't know if I should be regretting now.
I doubt she say anything yet to me about it.
So hopefully the waiting game has a good ending.
Will really miss her when she flies off.

So in like 6 hours time, I'll be meeting Daphne.
Been awhile since we saw each other, equals to many things to talk about.
Chill another 4 more hours and then off to jamming.
Well, practicing for our recording is more appropriate.

I'm planning something for New Year, more like New Year's Eve.
Hopefully it will be put into action.
Seriously, I'm not even ready for 2009.

1 more paper to go baby.
Today's engineering mechanics paper is screwed.
I totally forgot everything.
So yeah, good luck boy.

8 more days to my flight, to Japan.
Yes people, I'm going to Japan, Osaka first then Tokyo.
Awesome stuff, hopefully getting my Fender Jaguar also.

Well I wanted to ask her out and watch Twilight,
But she's flying off to Hong Kong one day before I go,
Which is the opening for Twilight.
So, cancel that idea.
Obviously I have plan B up my sleeves.

So much stuff happening this month,
And hello 2009!
A year flew by, and it doesn't feel like a year.

Is it over?
I am fine, thank you dearly,
For your time.

I'll be leaving, don't you cry.
I'll be back soon, at least I'll try.

Can't you see,
There is no time to think selfishly.

Yesterday's gone, tomorrow's here
Can't turn back now.
I won't quit.

I still love you.
I swear, I always will.

Okay so this is my 4th day without my mobile phone.
And it's turning out to be bad.
Well not as bad as I though it would be,
But I know I'm missing loads of stuff without my phone.

I guess such things we often take for granted,
But when they're lost or stolen,
We realise that just how important it is to us.
Or how we are attached to it.

Life's been a downfall for me right now.
I feel like making a disappearing act.
You know, go missing for a couple of weeks,
Not communicating with the rest of the world.

I feel as though I've lost all contact with everyone.
I don't feel like getting another phone.
I just want my old phone back.
So much memories, just so much memories.

When something goes missing,
A part of the heart goes along with it.
What seems to be a material, can be so dear to someone.
It becomes a part of you.

I lost my handphone during emceeing Orion 2008.
Seriously what the fcuk man.
I mean it's my fault also.
What's important to me in that phone is my contacts and the messages.
Everything else can be replaced, even the phone.
But never the contacts and especially the messages.

It reminds me of her when I read them.
I seriously feel so lost right now.
Life so different without my handphone.
Hopefully I can get it back.
Pray to God, hard.

In the bus, on the way home.
I pretty much thought about what I was told today.
Finally I hit my senses, real hard.
So it also shows that I don't get hints.

I need to change my attitude.
Sort of like, try not to be a Mr Know-It-All,
Just be below the radar.
I seriously appreciate what I was being told.
I respect him even more for having the guts to tell me in the face,
Not bad mouthing me behind my back.

Come to think of it,
I'm sometimes an arse, because I have experienced somethings it before.
Well, my attitude is abit screwed at times.
Being boastful seems to run in the blood pretty sadly.

I really want to change for the better good.
I need to go for some deep soul searching.
This is for the better of me, and for everyone else.
Well, especially for