Okay seriously, I don't think I can think properly right now.
And yeah amazingly they didn't want an emcee for the Sinfonique 2008.
They rather have one of their own to do it for them.
Initially I was pretty disappointed at first because of all the trouble I went through.
But was kind of glad I don't have to be the one screwing up,
On stage, in front of thousands of people.

Anyways, my brain is totally not working properly.
I pretty much have loads to do in such little time.
And not that my current situation is helping me much.
When a choice comes along, which do one chooses?

To make a choice over the other doesn't make me the good guy.
A state of confusion, what obviously can you possibly do?
I totally hate it when I think too much.
Pretty much what makes my mind tick?

Seriously, I have no bloody clue.
A ticking time bomb, about to blow up anytime.

Well, you are the one that lies close to me.
Whisper's "Hello, I miss you quite terribly".
I fell in love with you suddenly.
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms.

Okay, so guess what?
I'm your emcee for NYP Sinfonique'08 on the 31th October.
I'll be missing out SBM Halloween Party and Trella's single launch at Homeclub.
Been missing out loads of stuff in school lately too.
Too darn busy with events here, there and everywhere.
I really should take a break from all of these events.
Totally wearing out, and I mean fast, real fast.

I swear I need a moment to stop and reflect on what's been going on.
Have you ever seen your whole life flashed in front of you?
It happened to me twice already, and seriously I'm not liking it.

Please don't ask me how I feel today.
With both extreme end filling my head with much confusion.
Well, I'm really glad that I get to see her again after so many weeks.
To spend time with her after so long,
Laughing with her on stupid stuffs is simply icing on the cake.
She really made my morning, even though I travelled to and fro.

Whatever happens next would be a totally different issue.
Let's not forget this moment, treasure it with all my life,
Be buried with me till I die.

I still long to say words to you, specific words.
Now I plan to make most of my photography series an emotional one.
How you feel that day of the shoot, makes or breaks your shots.
Surprisingly, my first series turned out amazingly well.
This series is dedicated to you, seriously for you.
You guys should know who.

To complete a story, my story

You so looked like Christmas morning.
A purity so pure, a smile so bright.
I found something that I could never have.
I cherished the moments that I had.
Bury them deep with me when I die.

I can save you, but never myself.
Curious how I still sing this song of hope.
The slightest error makes the biggest mistake.
These wounds won't heal in time.

How these scars remind me how anguish feels,
This life means nothing, without you.
I won't ever forget you,
But you'll be a faint memory, drifting aimlessly.

My new material for my next original.
I'm kind of brainstorming the tunes for the first one.
I'll update soon yeah.
Hopefully.

It's been a hell of a week for me, and school just started.
With so much things to do,
I don't even know if I can complete my portfolio.
Loads of events are going to happen in these 2 months.
And I'm starting to have second thoughts about leaving.

Sometimes I wonder how I still sing a song of hope.
When hope seems to a near impossible thing to happen.
Even with friends saying, please move on with life,
I know it's just too hard to let go.
It's true that I'm still thinking of you.

You'll find it out soon.
Perhaps before I leave, if it happens.
If not, this feeling will follow me to my grave.

Finally, I'm back from my trip to Hanoi, Vietnam.
Well I must say the trip wasn't that fantastic as expected.
All I did was just shoot around, results will be shown after processing.
And amazingly I didn't buy anything, no souvenirs yeah.
I presume it was a time for me to rest and relax before school starts.

I had a horrid time, all I could think about was...
Yeah, the song is stuck in my head permanently, I hope not.
Yeah some of you guys should know who.
But sometimes you just don't even know why things like these happens.
It happens in the most weirdest places and times.

So school is about to start soon,
And I mean in 9 hours and 30 minutes, now it's like 1230am.
Holidays flew by pretty fast, due to Polytechnic Forum I think.
Makes me wonder if I had made a different decision.
The outcome will be different, so bloody different.

Well okay, so I'm done writing my new stuff.
An emotional time writes an emotional song.
Heavily influenced by The Devil Wears Prada and Alesana.
I'm pretty much ecstatic with my new work.
All that it needs now is the tunes, some sickass tunes.

It's about a guy, yes a normal average guy.
He falls for this girl, a girl of his dreams.
She's such a bubbly and lively girl.

He told himself to forget about her,
But it keeps replaying in his mind, head like a broken record.
Praying to God to forgive him, and make him forget.
The memories keeps haunting him, everytime he sleeps.

Reoccurring, God please save him from this,
I plead to You.

It has been a fabulous week for me,
Photo shoot with my mates, Team NYP outing.
3 more days till I fly for Vietnam to meet my mum.
She left for Vietnam just today, will miss her loads.

Suddenly I'm in the mood for writing originals.
Won't have any music, just the lyrics though.
I'll fit them in some way or another.
It got me thinking again, about...
You guys should know yeah,
Or you think you know which I think you don't.

I'm asking for your forgiveness God.
Please lay her to rest.

Well, Hari Raya this year will be a short one,
I mean a really short one.
Somehow it doesn't feel so joyous this year.
Maybe it's just me on what has happened.
I'm practically spending the first day of this joyous event at home,
When normally I go visiting and such.
The green packets won't be flooding in that much.

Anyways to all Malay Muslims, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

On the high note, I'll be shooting tomorrow with my mates.
And the-all-awaited bowling outing for Team NYP.
Not forgetting my trip to Vietnam the week before school reopens.

I totally hate my new timetable.
Filled with MATHEMATICS I tell you.
The other modules are fine by me though.
I pray I can do well this semester, if I make it through.
Some of you should know why.

Damn, I haven't complete my portfolio.
Need to do it soon, real soon.