Now we must let go,
Urgency overwhelms me as I must restrain my flood of tears.
I refuse to be slave to your false beauty again.
I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight,
Help me get over you.




Well, blessthefall finally found their new lead singer.
Beau Bokan, formally from Take The Crown.
I'm super stoked by their new stuff.
Can't wait to get my hands on their new album.

What's coming up
Hari Raya Aidil Fitri
Teamn NYP bowling outing
Trip to Vietnam

Well, this will sum up my holidays.
Of course, not forgetting Polytechnic Forum,
Which totally made my holidays.
Really man, not kidding.

To love is to sacrifice.
Well, of course sometimes you do regret the decisions you make now later.
Your mind filled with what ifs, how come and why.
But sometimes it's for the greater good.
You can do nothing much, but if it has to break yet again,
So be it.

How much it hurts, can't hurt you as bad.
That thin line between friendship and love.
God, you just hate that tiny difference.
Again that believe crashes down, and crumbles.
But to sacrifice is to love. Right?

I shall say my peace on how I feel.
Nothing can hurt more from what I'm about to do.
Is to give up on that hope that I held on for so long.
Forget what I've said earlier, just forget it.
How I wish the story was different.
Oh so how I wished.

Practically I'm munching on a bag of Doritos.
Haven't been feeling well lately, some of you guys should know why.
Anyways, the migraines are back.
I can feel the kick, and boy it's an awful one.

You wonder what the outcome will be.
Others say it can never happen.
Hopes installed in you drop drastically.
Could you ever hang on to that slim chance?
The light that surpasses the failure.

To believe that in one in a million chance that the result is what you want,
Boy, don't you have the guts to still hang on.
Sometimes it's kinda stupid to believe in such things.
Sometimes it's stupid not to believe.

Babbling utter nonsense keeps you from believing that it can happen.
So what if it does?
You obviously would be jumping for joy.
But what if it doesn't? Which is about 99.8% proven.
How long can you withstand the wait, before you crumble?

I'm so proud that you're willing to hold on to that faith,
Eventhough how slim the chances are.
There are times I wonder, do you like this feeling?
Or you just can't feel any more?

I do wonder why you can never let go.
And why was she the one that made you believe again?




Finally I understand why you held on,
Why you began to believe again.
The biggest disaster would be giving this a pass.

I hope you're just ready for the outcome.
I really hope that you are.

lets get out of this world.
leave all responsibility, and go to a place nobody knows.
lets find a world where consequences don't follow every decision.
we could float around in a world of ideals. cause ignorance is definitely bliss.

but no.

reality will always somehow find a way to suck us back in.
more often than not, leaving us in a place thats worse than before.
we are forced to assume responsibility.
forced to face what we've always been running from, only its ten times worse.

but we run again.
we keep running.

everything gets worse and worse.
life spirals out of control.
nothing makes sense anymore.
you realize we need help.
you hook onto someone in hope that maybe, just maybe there's still hope.

things go well.
you're starting to move forward.
things start to make sense again.
you feel the purpose.
you're having trouble keeping up, but at least your moving.

then suddenly, you're alone again.
you're devastated.
everything you hoped for falls apart.
you lose all sense of being.
now you're worse than ever before.
the happier you were, the harder you fall.
now its almost like you've crashed to the floor.

all the while you've wanted to be grown up, handle things on your own.
but you screwed it up.
you did it wrongly.
you now know what it means to be grown up.
to take responsibility.
you now actually want to.
so now, you've just got to try to.
only time will tell

Must I really say?
Why can't it be so obvious?
What seems so right, becomes so wrong.
I'm so afraid that it will turn out the same.
The very same for the past years.

2 weeks of utter Polytechnic Forum has been a blast!
Well, not forgetting stress and all that stuff.

It's been hell of an experienced for me, as a year 1 student.
Surprisingly, many thought I was a year 2 student.
Quite strange don't you think so?

Anyways, I had so much fun during these 2 weeks.
Team NYP came out from this forum as a family.
Bonds were so damn bloody close.
I can't put into words how I feel right now, only pictures could explain them?
You may think it's bad place to fall for someone,
But you know how sometimes it's just happens to be.
Surprisingly I did, well not a surprise I guess.

Let's call her Miss Independent.
She's so cute.
But I still haven't told her yet, the secret is still intact.
Let's not have the horrid migraines that I had before.






Tired, damn bloody tired.
Ever since Monday.
This Annual Polytechnic Forum thing is really getting on my nerves.
Well, pretty much that sums up for this week.
If a hot girl asks me for my number, I'll tell you for sure.

Next week, it will be at Downtown East chalet.
So I have no idea what's up at Downtown East.
Hope it will be more fun than this week,
No, confirm will be.

And now I'm in trouble with this girl that's around me.
She set me on fire!

Can you believe I shot 35 shots of someone I don't personally know?
Homeclub was a blast, obviously POSTBOX and ACTDEUX were totally amazing.
Okay, I shall not be a total FANBOY here, but I was totally amazed by her.
Well okay I admit, I'M SO TOTALLY OBSESSED NOW!

Let's drift away from the topic yeah.
Had my first lesson of the film studio lighting part-time course.
It was very heavy during the lesson,
Well I guess it's always heavy on the first lesson.

I love local,
But random assault is not moshing.


Well, practically I'm updating my blog since Daphne asked me to.
And, I figured this is not a good time to blog anyways.
It's like 2:53am now!

So finally I got something to cover my head with, a fedora.
Due to my screwed up hair, now it looks spastic. Long story.
Got my black fedora with Daphne, she go hers with my money.
Also got my vest after a long time, gray for your information.
Somehow with that fedora, I look like Jason Mraz, malay version.
Okay you guys can laugh all you want,
But I think it's kinda cool and stuff, minus the Jason Mraz part.

There's some school event later.
Wonder what activities are up man.
I shall say the fedora will be on my head until my hair grows.
FEDORAS FTW!
For the win, not Fcuk the world mind you.

It's been 3 days since I went home.
Well, it has been a really hectic week for me.

Baybeats 2008 wasn't that much as anticipated,
I was hardly fascinated, due to A Vacant Affair wasn't playing.

All I could remember is that I moshed like crazy during Caracal.
But I don't like them anyways, only their songs though.
Another band that caught my ears were Jebediah from Australia, and local scene Sour Grapes.
Sour Grapes had magical vocals, including the screams,
But they were lead down by their playing.

Fasting month here, so it means more money to get camera doodz!
It's been a real eye opener for me, how the local scene works.
Well I guess it was time for me to experience beyond the borders.

Hmm, I think Australia, or America would be the right place.
And I better do my portfolio before my holidays end.